I've spent most of my evening crying. We received our acceptance letter today from Living Hope Adoption Agency. So exciting! Until we got to the part where in order to continue we needed a significant check. We have the amount for the first payment...we can do that. But that's where it ends. I'll have to sell an awful lot of flowers for us to bring this baby girl home before we're 40! Satan is having a field day in making me doubt this whole thing. "That's a lot of money...can God really make this happen?" I'm wondering if it is really what we should do? I mean, I know it is. God tells us that in His Word. We're just to this point of a significant financial investment...so much bigger than our means and the fear, doubt and questions set in.
But then I get excited. Excited that a year or so from now I can look back at this blog entry and laugh. Laugh in the face of my doubt. Laugh with praise at the faithfulness of our God who moved mountains so that we could adopt our precious baby girl! And that God would choose to allow us to be a testimony to His faithfulness and deep love for orphans.
Bring it, Satan. My God is bigger!