Santa Paws

We watched Santa Paws tonite with the kiddos...fun movie.  Adoption was themed all through this Christmas tale.  It made me long, really long for our daughter...to hold her, kiss her, make cookies with, sparkle the house with its Christmas glow, and of course dress her in adorable outfits! :)  Its amazing how much my heart can love this sweet thing that may not have yet been born!  It is so evident to me that we're on the road God wants on...adoption.


For those of you who might just be dying to give towards our adoption, but aren't interested in a flower pin :) you can now donate right here on our blog via paypal.

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I've spent most of my evening crying.  We received our acceptance letter today from Living Hope Adoption Agency.  So exciting!  Until we got to the part where in order to continue we needed a significant check.  We have the amount for the first payment...we can do that.  But that's where it ends.  I'll have to sell an awful lot of flowers for us to bring this baby girl home before we're 40!  Satan is having a field day in making me doubt this whole thing.  "That's a lot of money...can God really make this happen?"  I'm wondering if it is really what we should do?  I mean, I know it is.  God tells us that in His Word.  We're just to this point of a significant financial investment...so much bigger than our means and the fear, doubt and questions set in.

But then I get excited.  Excited that a year or so from now I can look back at this blog entry and laugh.  Laugh in the face of my doubt.  Laugh with praise at the faithfulness of our God who moved mountains so that we could adopt our precious baby girl!  And that God would choose to allow us to be a testimony to His faithfulness and deep love for orphans. 

Bring it, Satan.  My God is bigger!

Jeremiah 32:27
“I am the LORD, the God of all mankind. Is anything too hard for me?"

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I am so excited to be featured today on
http://buildingtheblocks.blogspot.com/

Amy and Todd have adopted numerous children and have put together a list of Christmas gift ideas that benefit adoption.  Head on over, do some Christmas shopping and help an orphan at the same time!

sometimes God speaks while I am vacuuming...perhaps I should clean more often

In trying to choose a country to adopt from and an agency to use, I've been feeling tremendous pressure.  I've always felt this pull towards adopting from China, but I am just learning about a Honduras pilot program. Available are healthy babies and toddlers and the process once paperwork is turned in is 6 mo. to 1 yr.

I was vacuuming this afternoon thinking that this decision is like choosing a mate. Let me explain. Within some qualifiers (Christian, man to be the leader of the home, godly character, etc.) God gives us freedom in choosing a mate. God knew that I would marry my husband, but I don't think he was the only one that I could have chosen and lived a happy, fulfilled life with. (Now don't get me wrong...I wouldn't trade my man for anyone in the world). So, I'm not so sure that the country we choose to adopt from will paralyze God's will. His desire is that orphans are cared for and loved and have a home. Do we really need to feel the pressure of trying to "find" the daughter He has for us?  I'm not so sure that we do.  I am not so big that I can keep God's plan from working.  He works in spite of me...in spite of my weakness...in spite of my mistakes...in spite of my sin...in spite of my lack of faith.  In the meantime we pray for wisdom and move forward as best as we can.

A new friend (thanks, Ang!) sent me this youtube video...love this song!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l9ksMpwqjXQ